I have been trying to meditate since August, well actually for a few years but my most recent attempt started in August. I bought a book about meditation, a cd to guide me into meditation and I downloaded the cd so it is on my iphone.
So far that is the progress I have made toward meditating.
Why is this so hard for me to do, to start, to attempt? The thought of being peaceful, quiet and restful for a short period of time each day sounds so ideal to me. I want to know that I have that time of centering each day. Yet, along with my regular gym visit that is well intentioned but not accomplished, I make no headway in accomplishing this as a routine.
I think part of the mindset that needs to be corrected is that this isn’t selfish time, but necessary time. Rather than an indulgence it is a basic tool to add to the quality of my day and life. I also think I need to schedule these times as I would a business meeting or an appointment – if it’s on the calendar it’s a commitment. I know this to be true – yet no progress has been made.
For today I will be kind to myself and rephrase my intention – I aspire to meditate. I will let you know when that aspiration becomes reality!